Freakshow

Freakshow

I had always wanted to be the center of attention until I was shackled into the main attraction of her sideshow. A three-ring circus and her freak show, fisting gaping chests and shredding hearts. I stepped right up and felt the twisting of my head, I heard the cracking of my skull, and I was [...]

This Non Compliant Needs A Med Change

I have been feeling like shit for quite some time and here is where I'm at: I think it was around 4 months ago now the last time I waltzed my ass out of my psychiatrist's office after she prescribed me tegretol and looked me dead in the eye and stated, "I'm going to refer you [...]

Peep-Make-Believe at The Psychiatrist

So I went to see my psychiatrist yesterday — finally. We've been doing the unavailable dance for over a month now. She's been rescheduling and I've been avoiding. I'm almost certain rescheduling is a professional's tool used as an avoidance technique though. I'm bringing that up during our next session. I was in the zone on [...]

Awakenings or Delusions

  In 2012 I was sitting in my psychiatrist’s office having a very pleasant conversation with her about shamans and healers and their moments of spiritual awakenings.  I let out a little chuckle and said something about how unfair it was having the diagnosis of bipolar disorder that any spiritual awakening I may have would [...]