My Days Are Numbered

My moods have been predetermined and prescribed. Seven tiny compartments measure my days. Pink and orange match the sunrise and taste bitter with my coffee. I chase them with water so they mellow in my blood, as if water can render toxic harmless. Yellow sticks in my throat every morning, and steals my happiness before … Continue reading My Days Are Numbered

Twenty-six Pages

  Remember when I said I was going to get the pharmacist to print out every single medication I have been prescribed since 2012? Well here it is and it is a whopping 26 pages long. There is shit on here that I had to Google, absolutely no fucking clue what it was, and no recollection … Continue reading Twenty-six Pages

My Brain is on Fire

I asked for this medication change. I needed this medication change, but that doesn't make the initial effects of this medication change any easier to deal with. Yesterday was particularly brutal for me. How is it possible for one's head to simultaneously feel so bloody heavy that it's weighing your entire body down yet at … Continue reading My Brain is on Fire

This Non Compliant Needs A Med Change

I have been feeling like shit for quite some time and here is where I'm at: I think it was around 4 months ago now the last time I waltzed my ass out of my psychiatrist's office after she prescribed me tegretol and looked me dead in the eye and stated, "I'm going to refer you … Continue reading This Non Compliant Needs A Med Change

Sun, Fun & Booze

This is me after 5 days of sun, fun and Twisted Teas. Note the hooded eyes and swollen face. I just got home from five days at the lake with my family. A great time was had by all, for the most part. Not gonna lie, I drank a little too much. I didn't get … Continue reading Sun, Fun & Booze

WARNING! Who’s In Charge of YOUR Stability?

“I have found both freedom and safety in my madness; the freedom of loneliness and the safety from being understood, for those who understand us enslave something in us.” ― Kahlil Gibran, The Madman For the past four years, my psychiatrists (I’ve had a couple) have deemed it not only necessary, but absolutely crucial, that … Continue reading WARNING! Who’s In Charge of YOUR Stability?

MindTrip CROSSFIRE: Bipolar Edition #2

A section where I take one topic and hit it from two different bipolar perspectives. This is the place where we encourage you to join in on the conversation, share your experience, and let us know where YOU stand. MINDTRIP CROSSFIRE: BIPOLAR EDITION #2 ON MEDICATION–Contributors: Nicole Lyons & Dori Owen I Consider Stopping My Meds On … Continue reading MindTrip CROSSFIRE: Bipolar Edition #2