Freakshow

I had always wanted to be the center of attention until I was shackled into the main attraction of her sideshow. A three-ring circus and her freak show, fisting gaping chests and shredding hearts. I stepped right up and felt the twisting of my head, I heard the cracking of my skull, and I was … Continue reading Freakshow

Unbalanced

I have God in my words and the devil in my ear, and a sister, who keeps telling me to find my magic. © Nicole Lyons 2017 

The Good Girls Are Always Found

I have broken my own bones, splintered them and placed them into bags, dozens of bags of me, and I have thrown them from the windows of speeding cars in hope that you will find me after the crash, somewhere where the good girls would never go, littered between back alleys in the dark parts, … Continue reading The Good Girls Are Always Found

My Manic Mind – WBD 2017

I wrote My Manic Mind a couple of years ago to explain what mania feels like for me. I tried to write it in a way that everyone, bipolar or not, could understand and possibly relate to. My Manic Mind has been featured on Feminine Collective and was published in their gorgeous book, Raw & … Continue reading My Manic Mind – WBD 2017

Clusters – This world is a cruel place

Thank you to Feminine Collective for publishing this piece about how bipolar disorder often feels. Clusters

Fancy Shoes – Stephanie Bennett-Henry

There's not a simple way to explain the process of this sickness disguised trick or treat surprise guessing game. No easy way to help you understand. But I can tell you; these fancy shoes have never felt good. They feel permanent. They feel like forever swirling around in quicksand turning to concrete. Stuck on a … Continue reading Fancy Shoes – Stephanie Bennett-Henry

Six Words

It's amazing how much can be said, or not said, in six little words.  

Clusters

It is as if some sort of cosmic energy is continually pulsing through my veins, cascading along, dancing with my white blood cells, finding a home in every organ of my body. I hold the universe inside of me and I delight in the idea of that for days on end, but when I hit … Continue reading Clusters

Twenty-six Pages

  Remember when I said I was going to get the pharmacist to print out every single medication I have been prescribed since 2012? Well here it is and it is a whopping 26 pages long. There is shit on here that I had to Google, absolutely no fucking clue what it was, and no recollection … Continue reading Twenty-six Pages

Peep-Make-Believe at The Psychiatrist

So I went to see my psychiatrist yesterday — finally. We've been doing the unavailable dance for over a month now. She's been rescheduling and I've been avoiding. I'm almost certain rescheduling is a professional's tool used as an avoidance technique though. I'm bringing that up during our next session. I was in the zone on … Continue reading Peep-Make-Believe at The Psychiatrist