Crazy is a Luxury

It's finally here, the day has come when I see my GP about an ECT consult. The medication/psychiatric merry-go-round is killing me. I can't do this anymore. I haven't left my house in weeks, I haven't written for PC because let's be honest, I'm not doing so well with "Living well with mental illness" and [...]

Twenty-six Pages

Twenty-six Pages

  Remember when I said I was going to get the pharmacist to print out every single medication I have been prescribed since 2012? Well here it is and it is a whopping 26 pages long. There is shit on here that I had to Google, absolutely no fucking clue what it was, and no recollection [...]

Happy Christmas Eve Indeed

I saw Dr. H yesterday. Dr. H is my GP, he's wonderful. He has been my doctor for years, delivered my children and was the one who has referred me to my psychiatrist(s). Dr. H always listens and does not put up with any bullshit from me whatsoever. Did I mention he listens? We sat [...]

This Non Compliant Needs A Med Change

I have been feeling like shit for quite some time and here is where I'm at: I think it was around 4 months ago now the last time I waltzed my ass out of my psychiatrist's office after she prescribed me tegretol and looked me dead in the eye and stated, "I'm going to refer you [...]

Delusions or brilliance?

Delusions or brilliance?

Vibrant Ideas My mind is filled with an essence. Tales and characters ride on the cusp of almost tangible, and trust me when I tell you they are neither delusion nor hallucination, but that they are vivid and extraordinary. Thinking outside of the box makes perfect sense to me and logic seems almost crude, at [...]

Awakenings or Delusions

  In 2012 I was sitting in my psychiatrist’s office having a very pleasant conversation with her about shamans and healers and their moments of spiritual awakenings.  I let out a little chuckle and said something about how unfair it was having the diagnosis of bipolar disorder that any spiritual awakening I may have would [...]