Matthew in all that raw, heartbreaking beauty. Something triumphant here.
I have infections in my ears
The Dr looks and says,
You have infections in your ears, here ya go I’ll write some prescriptions and just take this medicine you’ll be okay
I say, my body hurts all day every day
and my soul hurts all day every day
and I feel like maybe,
could it be possible to say,
I am here but I should be finding a hole to lie down in, or a furnace to obliterate my bones to ash and smoke
Is it possible that I’m alive but I would feel better dead?
The Dr says,
I want you to take these pills and they might help and they might help and they might help
and maybe they’ll make you feel suicidal
And I ask, how will I know if they’re making me feel suicidal, I’ve been feeling suicidal and I’ve been fighting to…
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