I have fallen

I have fallen hard,
swirled to the bottom
of a bottle of Jack, stuck
to the blade after
the perfect line was cut.
I have had life breathed
back into me, great
thrusts upon my heart
cracking ribs, as if pain
could will me to stay.
I walked the halls
of the damned, kissed
death herself and told her,
‘not quite yet.’ I have
swallowed poison
to placate others,
and switch myself off.
I have died
one hundred deaths
to appease doctors,
and family, and friends,
and I did it all
in the name of sanity.
I found myself one
thousand miles from home
in the arms of strangers,
The Enlightened;
and because of them,
their nourishment, I have
accepted my torment. I have
breathed in my darkness
and welcomed it home,
surrendered to the beauty
that was my undoing,
and in acceptance I found
the exquisite jewel that I am.

©Nicole Lyons 2016

9 comments

  1. Gorgeous, gorgeous, gorgeous, and it resonates so much with me. SO much. I’ve found myself becoming whole in this World Between the Wires…kintsugi’d by the wonderful friends I’ve made here…put back together with gold…almost beautiful, and stronger in the places I was broken before.

    This piece I love. Love. HARD!

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