You think you know me?
You think I’m the same woman from a few years back?
Not even close.
You think I’m still quiet, subservient, timid and fragile?
You think I’m just going to let you do and say what you want to me?
I can see through your lies and bullshit.
I was taught by the very best.
I know your game of manipulation, you’re a player, but now I am a coach.
I know how to be strong, because that’s all I’ve ever been since I put myself back together- alone.
I am neither quiet, nor am I timid.
I say it like it is, I am proud of who I am,
I do not like to fight, but I am not afraid to bleed.
I use my voice to rise above the lies and rumors and gossip that is said about me.
No, I know exactly who I am.
I am not scared to be myself, I am not scared to be alone, I am not scared for my future even though I don’t know what’s in store for me.
I stitched my pain, my tears, my blood,
my anger, my sadness and my loneliness together with such a durable string, that no matter how hard I am tugged on,
pulled on, stretched, dropped,
ignored, abandoned, and no longer loved
so well, that I have MADE the woman you see today.
I am everything you hate, I am all kinds of hurt, I draw strength from solitude, my ideas are formed from isolation. I am loved by myself, for myself, with no motives, with no deceptions, with no lies.
So before you think you know me,
© Dianne Hoffmeyer 2016
Dianne is an amazing woman; to call her “strong” or “brave” doesn’t cover the half of it. Dianne is a fighter. Blessed with nine beautiful children, she has lived through every mother’s worst nightmare, the death of her child, and she has done it twice.
As a survivor of domestic violence, Dianne found the courage to put her ex husband behind bars, after he shot and stabbed her.
Clean for seven years, Dianne is a recovering addict who in her words, “kept breaking out of handcuffs” until she realized it was time to stop.
Diagnosed with bipolar disorder, anxiety, and PTSD, Dianne is also in advanced stages congestive heart failure. To say she is brave and strong doesn’t do her justice.
Dianne found happiness with her soul mate and was recently married. Her kids are her life, and every decision she makes is made in hope that it is the right one and guides them down the right path in their lives.
The life of love she tries to live each day is a legacy she hopes her kids will live, learn, and never forget.