It is as if some sort of cosmic energy
is continually pulsing
through my veins,
cascading along, dancing
with my white blood cells, finding
a home in every organ
of my body.
I hold the universe
inside of me
and I delight
in the idea of that for days
on end,
but when I hit blackest of holes,
the galaxies
that live beneath my skin
never cease.
Bone deep
exhaustion near cripples me,
the melancholy damn near swallows
me alive,
but still, the stars erupt
with every
ba bump of my heartbeat, and shoot
through my system.
This world is a cruel place
for a mad girl
with stars falling
under her skin.

© Nicole Lyons 2016


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10 thoughts on “Clusters

  1. Lines fro a song come to mind:
    “Speeding through the universe
    Thinking is the best way to travel.” The Moody Blues
    Of course, that wasn’t about Bipolar, but a rather different, but somehow related experience. In these beautiful words you have that universe speeding through you, a unity with the great whole that is not entirely mad, just sometimes overwhelming and out of control, flying too high and landing too hard. Hmm, I begin to wonder if the original teller of the tale Icarus flying too near the sun and crashing knew something Bipolar. As always, Nicole, you make me think and feel. reblogging

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      1. Besides Icarus, I’ve been thinking that myth, folk tales, fairy tails, and scripture are all full of stories, descriptions, and metaphors of the experiences and ways of being we now call mental illness. It has been with us as long as we have been human and maybe longer. I might have t have another look at Carl Jung’s archetypes and Joseph Campbell on the hero’s journey.


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