Peace by Piece

Piece By Peace

 

It’s during the moments when I’m quiet
that I foolishly give in
to the idea of peace.
I should know better by now.
With every blow you laid on me,
you stripped me of any chance of peace
that I could have hoped for.
Now the bruises have healed,
the scars blended into shades of me,
faded into almost gone… almost.
The almost is what kills me again,
taunts me and tells me what a coward I was.
It’s the almost, the faded pieces
that bring up everything I never did,
every single thing I never said.
Unspoken fears rise up and curdle
against my tongue.
They threaten to choke me.
So I swallow them, again,
every last word I never said to you,
and the burn explodes through my body,
shredding it piece by piece,
promising a life without peace,
if they go unsaid once more.

28 thoughts on “Peace by Piece

  1. I’m trying to remember where this line comes from: “Never be afraid to smile at what you really love.” We so often and long carry the weight of words unsaid, You write the pain and cost of such very beautifully. Thanks – reblogging

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  2. Brilliantly written Nicky. When I read this I feel sick to my stomach fully realizing what abuse does to the abused for a lifetime. I fully realize because you have expressed it so well that I can feel every blow. One of “my kids” being on the receiving end of this treatment also leaves a permanent bruise on my heart and soul. There is no cowardice whatsoever in the person who wrote this piece. NONE!

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  3. You will find peace one day Nicole and having the courage and honesty to put yourself out to the world as you do is helping so many others heal and someone to walk through their pain with them. There is a time and a place for everything and you are certainly there right now.

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  4. Hi, nice to read….it is not easy to suffer from this mood mental illness….wonder if time change, know i just believe in today and honesty, the effort to stay in reality?

    Keep writting, is beautifullle

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